Little miracle

Little miracle
Liam Gerardo Cruz

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Sweet memories

We have been home these last few days. I just love watching you.
Good night my love
You just love this book!
Dada surprised you with some balloons!
I love watching you sleep in your daddy's arms
Your cousin and tio came to visit you yesterday
AJ loves you. Even if he's a little rough
This a.m I pulled out your first pj that didn't fit. Look at how much you've grown! Today you're 16 weeks!
Another one of my favorite pjs
You do not take your nap until you hold Blue and I put your blanket on you.
You stayed awake 3 hours! I'm sure you would of slept longer but you were to excited that Dada visited us for lunch. 


Sunday, October 11, 2015

Favorites

As you are growing, seems like little by little you are descovering the world and some things catch your eye more then others. One of your favorite books that when I read to you, you just stare and once, you tried flipping the pages, is Good night Moon. I could read it over and over while you sit in the Bumboo seat. When we give you "Blue" you grab it and start eating Blue haha. Since the 4hh of July, you enjoy watching tv!! It's as if you already know where the tv is located and you turn towards it. That doesn't make me so happy but I guess a few minutes a day, it's okay. When I sing "You are my sunshine" it's been several times that you just stare at me and to me, you try to sing along. I admit, some of those times, I can't finish the song because I get teary eyed. Also, when I sing "Twinkle twinkle little star" and use my fingers to sing it, you Love it!! It quickly makes you smile. One of my favorite things to do with you is if you're being calm, I'll look at you and giggle and that instantly brings a big toothless smile to you. Even though you still are trying to figure out how to laugh, if we tickle you, it makes you laugh your silly screams. One thing I can't forget is how much you love to talk!! Wow can you be a chatterbox!! And strangely, you love your reflux medicine in the mornings.if I can think of some more things I'll add them but for now I have to stop because you woke up. From your nap all smiling. I love you Liam 

A good Saturday

Your dad truly always finds ways for you and me to have fun. You may be just 15 weeks old but since it's your first Halloween, he wanted us three to be outside and decorate a bit for Halloween. We were outside for over a hour and you didn't even mind just watching us while you are your finger and your Dumbo book. Dada did a great job putting up some simple decorations.We needed some more decorations and diapers so we went to target and dada pretended to give you some pasta haha. That afternoon, we went with my mom, Franco, Melly, and AJ to Tomball. They were having trunk or treat which is vehicles parked giving out some candy. When we arrived, you were sound of asleep but you must have wanted candies bec you woke up haha. You were held the whole time so you could enjoy looking around. Later that night, we went to eat some bar b q and you did great. Just got a bit fussy when you wanted your lechita. Grandma spent the night with us and by 1030pm you were sound asleep. We hope that even though you are small, you are having a great time with us. 










Friday, October 9, 2015

Your first pumpkin patch



Today we took you to your first pumpkin patch! You sure did love it! We knew for sure because it was your feeding time and you did not mind the time haha. We took so many pics of you (when don't we) we had such a great time trying to have you sit with pumpkins and looking around that we completely forgot to buy a pumpkin! 

Here, you stood up all by yourself ;)








Wednesday, September 2, 2015

pictures overload

i think we take pictures of you everyday! how and what am i going to do with so many ?! lol i dont want to loose any special moment.
















Being your mommy

Liam, you are 10 weeks and one day! we are amazed by how time flies. I look at you non stop and cant believe how much you have grown. Last week in your 2 month check up you measured at 24 in and 13.8 lbs! they had to double check your height because they didnt believe you could of grown that much so fast, guess you'll be tall like daddy. We've had many nights were we just want to get at least 6 hours of straight sleep, you have cried for no reason and have scared us both because sometimes we dont know what can be wrong or do to help you. Its very true what everyone says, that its hard being a mom. i sometimes question myself if Im doing a good job. All i want in my heart is for you to be happy,safe,healthy and very loved. I have had days where I cry because i feel that i dont know what im doing. your dad seems to know exactly what to do, even if hes not home. i ask him for advice sometimes. I just want to be a great mom. i hope that one day you feel the same love and appreciation like i have with my mom, i think shes the most amazing person in the world. Today, we took you to the doctor because for the past week, youre eating less and seem to be in pain or discomfort while you have your bottle... we were told you silent reflux. it hurts me to think that you could be in pain in your tummy and we really cant help you. she wants us to start you on some medication. i admit, im scared of giving you medication, of the side effects it could cause. im hoping that it truly does help you and that you soon start to feel better and can be happier. i just want whats best for you. always.for maybe the first 6 or  7 weeks, we would use Avent bottles.. every night in the evening you would cry and get angry for around a hour. everyone would tell us you had colic but your dad and me knew it couldnt be, it just didnt sound like colic. we finally switched your bottles to dr browns and that same day we noticed such a huge difference in you! your tummy must of been full of air and caused you to be very uncomfortable. you still do get a bit cranky but we know now its not from the bottles, but now that i think about it, it may be pain from silent reflux. im sorry baby, im sorry that if you are in pain and not happy, that i didnt catch it earlier to try and help you feel better. despite the rough moments, you sure do make your dada and me laugh. i cant help but look at your little face. i look at you and i see your daddy. i see a little boy that has changed our world. i see so much innocence and purity in you. i want to do everything possible to protect you from anything and everyone. your dadda and i like to talk about all the things we can do with you, how we look forward to you running, taking you to Disney, enjoying Christmas together and doing fun things for the holidays. there is so much to look forward to, but we dont want to rush the time because you wont be this little for much longer. next thing we know, you'll be going to school and i know ill find myself missing the hard times and sleepless nights. more then anything, i know ill miss just holding you and being amazed by your sweet eyes, your little crease in your nose that shows up when you smile, your little baby talk and how we think  you say "thank you" after you sneeze, i dont want to forget any little detail about you my baby. i dont want to ever forget any of these days that have driven your dadda and i crazy and yet felt so much love and happiness for you.








Saturday, July 11, 2015

You are here!

You are finally here with mommy and daddy! it's almost going to be 3 weeks that we've been sharing our lives with you. I want to write about my birth story before i end up forgetting little details. Everything started on Sunday, June 21. That day, your dad and I hanged out in our home just watching tv most of the day and getting little things ready. We had to be at the hospital by 8pm. We wanted to see our parents before we left to the hospital but Luis's parents were out having dinner. So we just went to my parents house for a little while before leaving to the hospital. We got to the hospital and checked in. From there the lady walked us to what was our room. As we entered, i looked around, they had alot of things set up, the monitors, little bed for where you would be born and my scrubs to change into. After i got changed, i had my IV put in and had to answer a bunch of questions. At 9pm, they started me on cervadil which is used to open up my cervix and it stays inside for 12 hours. That night, i think i only slept probably for around 2 hours. My mom joined us at the hospital room at around 5:40 am. We did alot of just hanging out and watched tv. at 9am, they took the cervadil out and i was still only dilated at about 2. they gave me what they called a "break" so that i could have something to eat before trying out the cervadil again for another 12 hours. at 10 am, they inserted another cervadil. I wasnt so happy because i knew i had to wait 12 hours to see if there would be any progress. My mom went home with  my dad at around 230 that Monday since there wasn't much to do but wait. They took out the cervadil and i didnt dilate much, i think only to a 3. i was told i would be started on Pitocin at 1am and they would start it off slow to watch how i would react to it. Again that night, i did not sleep probably another hour and a half or 2. By the morning time on Wednesday, they told me they would increase it more. One of the nurses said they were going to be increasing it by 2 every now and then. the most it would get to is 40. That morning, Dr Todd walked in and said we would for sure have a baby. We were happy to hear that since we had been waiting for so long. My mom was there again that Wed early in the morning. Through the day on Wednesday, i was getting contractions as the Pitocin was getting stronger. I was hoping and thinking that i was dilating more. More hours went on and they kept increasing the pitocin. I believe that i got to about 24 on Pitocin when i considered getting an epidural close to around 5 something in the afternoon. The nurse went to call in the epidural and called my dr. She came back to check my cervix and said i hadn't dilated much from the morning, i had stayed at around a 5 and my cervix didnt soften. She went to call the dr and a while later the dr came in. He told us there hadn't been any progress in so many hours so the best thing to do was to go for a csection. He believed it could of been for 2 reasons, either my hips weren't opening wide enough or the umbelical cord was wrapped around the neck. He said to give it a while a hour or so til we got things ready. When he walked out of the room, Luis and i stayed alone in our room and both of us knew that we were scared. Since April, we knew there was a chance for a csection.  We thought we would be prepared. But we weren't. We were both so scared of any small thing going wrong or something happening to one of us. We both cried and talked about our fears. The nurse came in and she was so great. I broke down to her and told her how i felt and how scared i was. She reassured me everything would be okay and how it wasn't even considered a emergency c section, so everything would go calm and smooth. She was very positive and explained to us what would be happening next. Franco showed up with AJ and brought you and us a little gift. onesies, hats and mittens for baby and a box of chocolates with a small balloon and elephant for us. he too was encouraging to us and left within a few mintues to give us some time alone before the surgery. unfortunately, my nurse had to leave since they do a change of shifts and i had to have another nurse to take over. The anastesia doctor came in to ask me a few questions and said he would be in the room during the surgery. Next thing we know, it's time for us to walk to the OR. i didnt want to walk as i had been dripping a bit. When we arrived, Luis had to stay outside of the room for a few mintues while they prepared me. I walked in nervous. The room was big, very bright with drawers and machines all around and a small bed. They had me sit on the edge of the bed to get my spinal block. It wasnt so bad as the doctor explained to me what was going in. I felt a sting but  not super terrible. I was asked to lay down and they started to strap my arms, that's when i knew things were going bad for me. I started to feel weak and my vision seemed it was starting to change, i had to say outloud that i was feeling weird and i was to nervous. The anastesia dr said i would start feeling better soon when he brought up my blood pressure. I was getting more scared and thinking i wasnt going to make it. The doctor called a time out and one of the nurses was asking me questions i guess to keep me awake. The anastesia doctor kept saying i was going to start feeling better and next thing i knew, dr todd said to call in my husband. Luis came in and sat next to me and wow did i feel so much more better with him next to me. I was trying to stay calm and we kept talking during the surgery. I would feel slight movement but it wasnt nothing that hurt nor pressure. Next thing we heard the doctor say was "thats alot of hair!" luis and i both laughed. not long after, we heard the most adorable beautiful soft cry... You were born. I looked at Luis and his eyes were full of tears, not long after, i couldnt stop crying. From there, one of the nurses called for Luis to go meet our wonderful baby. He walked over while i stayed laying just trying to pay attention to everything that was being said. i could hear luis laughing in the background and talking to baby. he would stop to ask me if i was okay and i would say yes. Then i heard him say that baby was a little warewolf fom so much hair haha. It was finally time for me to meet you... Luis came to sit again next to me and they brought baby all swaddled with a little pink and blue hat. i started crying, my son was so handsome... and you were here and safe. From there, i guess they gave me medication or something because some things started to be a blur. I remember from there, Luis took baby to where the nurses told him to go, and i stayed behind for a few minutes. they moved me to another bed and then wheeled me into the recovery room. There, was baby and luis with some nurses while he kept getting some checks done i believe. I felt a bit drowsy but they finally put baby in my chest for some skin on skin. They had us in that room for a little while since they had to get us a post partum room. Waiting in the lobby were both set of grandparents and franco, melissa and aj were waiting. We finally were taken to the post partum room and i remember my eyes feeling like if they were bouncing or something strange. but it was from the medication. They had me with baby on my chest for 2 hours because they wanted to see if babys tempeture would go up. they wanted it to reach 98 and it was at 97 i believe. Finally the grandparents and franco, melissa and aj were able to meet liam but he had to be on my chest, so they didnt get to fully see him. Not long later, they left since it was late at night by then and they had to work the next day. That night, baby's temp got better and at around 2am he had his first bath which he did not like at all. Luis and i were to happy to even sleep. we were just amazed and stared and took pics of him all night. Finally, after so much that went on, trying to get pregnant, complications, scare, inducing and days of waiting..
Liam Gerardo Cruz was born on Wednesday June 21 2015 at 7:27 pm weighing 7.11 lbs 20.5 in long