Today, you have grown a little more

Right now, I'm sitting in the couch in your bedroom. I can't leave you here alone. I laid you down in your crib with the Winnie the Pooh globe that you love and you were so calm. I wrapped up your legs with your blanket and handed you Blue to hold. I walked away to get the sheep that has sounds to go to sleep because the water globe only plays for less then 5 minutes. I turned off the lights, turned the fan on, and opened up more the blinds so you won't be in the dark. I hid for a few minutes by your crib to watch you as you just started into the ceiling so peacefully not even moving around. I finally saw you close your eyes! You have been asleep for 5 min now. You usually don't even want to be in your crib for tummy time, sometimes you're okay with laying in there wide awake. I can't believe you're asleep. I didn't even put the wedge under you to help you be inclined. I hope your tummy is okay to be asleep laying flat. 

This morning, like always, after you have your first bottle, I swaddle you to sleep in your swing. You usually sleep for about 3 hours. And I'll nap too. Well, I woke up to hear you talking and doing little angry grunts. I saw you had slid down to the bottom of the swing, kicking non stop! A bit more and you would probably almost had fallen! I don't know if you could of actually fal but you seemed that way! Soon, you won't be sleeping in there anymore! 

Earlier, when I fed you, I had you sitting in my lap while I burped you. You were non stop talking while you chewed on your finger. I would look at you and you would give me the biggest toothless smile. I then started to cry. Today you're 17 weeks old. A few more weeks And you'll have teeth, roll all over the place and soon start to crawl. Soon, you won't even want to be in my lap anymore. You'll want to be discovering as much as you can. 

It seems as if today, you have grown a little more my love. Goodness,I love you beyond any word could ever explain. Even if I get scared of still being your mommy, you are my most precious gift. I love you son. Now and forever.