Your nursery

We finally settled on what color to paint the baby room! Since we would like a color that could be for boy or girl, we decided on grey. It's a nice color and easy to add lavender or a light blue color. Luis was so excited to start that he didn't even bother to ask for help, he wanted to do this all on his own.mthst same day we went to Home Depot and bought what was needed. Right after we went home and he started getting busy for the next few hours! He wanted it to look perfect and took his time putting up tape and making sure what needed to be covered and out of the way. We are happy with the outcome and looking forward to see it all finished with the decorations, crib, dresser, sofa and a library center.

Believe in miracles

Back in September before even finding out there was a chance to get pregnant I remember talking to my mom more in detail about my cysts and how it affected me. I had a doctor appointment the next day that I was dreading and just didn't want to go. When I was talking to my mom, it seems she understood a bit more and knew why I carried this sadness inside of me. I remember her saying she didn't know many words to say to make me feel better but that she knew something good would happen. Unfortunately, even though I accepted it, it's as if I lost some hope in a future. The next morning, I remember getting a early text message from her wishing me luck on appt But she also said she knew that day we would experience a miracle. I remember looking at that message and having tears in my eyes because for some reason, I felt it close to my heart as if something good was truly going to happen. That day, Luis and I went to the doctor and they did an ultrasound. When it was time to talk to the dr. She told us something we didn't expect to hear for  quite some time. She said there was a follicle there and that if we were ready, although chances were slim and our risk to loose it would be high, we could try having a baby! We both felt so happy and of course we said yes to get started on some new medications. Luis let me know after our visit how happy it made him that when the doctor mentioned there was a a chance of hope, he got teary eyed. We didn't want to get our hopes up way to high but how could we not be happy. Mom was very right, we were going to experience a miracle. A miracle of me getting a bit better and having some hope that my body wouldn't fail me.  We didn't get pregnant and of course I I cried when my period came by but on the next dr visit is when we were told there were more follicles so our chances were higher. Once again we took that chance, even though that one time we had agreed that if it didn't happen, we would wait a good while before trying again with those medications. Well, here we are now, experiencing the biggest miracle that God has given us, our baby and I know our baby is so small yet already so strong to hang in there and fight to become our loved baby. Our little loved miracle. It's true what they say, moms are always right and that day, my mom was more then right, she gave me hope through a text message. 

First time we ever saw you...

On November 11 I had my first "pregnancy appointment" it was the confirmation pregnancy visit to confirm that there truly was a baby. On that appointment, they had me take a urine test, blood work and the doctor went ahead and checked my cervix. She confirmed that we were having a baby and was even surprised herself to find out we had gotten pregnant faster than what she expected! since baby was still to tiny, she wanted me to wait til the following week for our first ultrasound. Nov 17 showed up and we were both on our way to meet our baby! I told Luis that out of all my dr visits, this one i felt nervous to be there, i was about to see my baby for the first time ever!!! i was in so much shock that it was still hard for me to let it sink in because i was to afraid of something being misread or happening and me really not be pregnant! they had me lay down for the ultrasound while Luis stood next to me, out of all the previous ultrasounds they've done, i never bothered looking at the screen, i didnt care to see my cysts but this time, i was eager to look at that screen and see for myself if there truly was a baby! we looked and there it was, my beautiful. loved, tiny baby just hanging out at 7 weeks and 2 days. She then pointed out to us a tiny spot that was moving very fast, it was the heart beating! we saw how fast it was moving! you already had so much life baby! she then let us hear the heartbeat, it sounded so amazing! i could hear Luis in the side of me laughing but with that laugh that i know it was from happiness. your hearbeat was at 160! no wonder we could very clearly see how fast it was beating!! After the dr visit, we went to have dinner and i think that's when it truly hit me, that you are here and in my tummy, you're safe and growing strong. Luis showed me a picture of a nursery in case you are a boy and it was of Dumbo! if you are a boy, Dumbo would be the perfect theme, in the movie, she waited to have her tiny elephant and after so much sadness and waiting, she got him... i can relate to her. After seeing that picture of the nursery, i just started crying. From being pregnant, that was the first time i cried because you truly are here, what we have been hoping for. See you in our next ultrasound baby.

 

We're having a baby!!!!

Since this is my new blogger and my first post, i would like to do some catching up from summer 2014. For a while, specially being married, we hoped to raise our own family. After seeing that it wasn't happening for us, i was scared of going to the doctor but i knew something had to be going on for us not being able to get what we were wanting. In June i finally went to the doctor and like always they did the usual pap smear and blood work but since we wanted a baby, i had to get a  few extra tests done. A week later, i get called in for a transvaginal ultrasound. When it was time to talk to the doctor, she told me what was going on and told me I wouldnt be able to have children. At that moment, it just did not sink in that i had some health issues and we wouldn't be able to have a family? i was at a loss. I met Luis up for lunch to talk about my dr visit and when my mom called me to find out how did it go, when i told her what the doctor said about children, she just started crying and said to me "yo queria mi munequita" i will never forget that hurt, pain and tears that I could hear in her voice. It broke me in a  million pieces and it all sunk in..... no family? health issues? for weeks with the new medications i would need to take daily and learning the seriousness of what i had, i found myself in a state of depression and negative thoughts. It really affected me and even though i have the best mother in the world and the best husband i could ever ask for.... i still felt trapped. Little by little i was at a better stage, i thought of all the blessings that i had and this was just a bump on the road. In September, my doctor had me do another ultrasound which she said there was a follicle there. That with that follicle, even though if i did get pregnant, i would be at a high risk of loosing our baby. She offered to put me on 2 extra medications (Clomid and Progesterone) to TRY and see if we could conceive. We didn't want to get our hopes up to high but it made us happy to hear that there was some hope. A month later, and my period showed up in Oct 5.... no baby. I cried to Luis and my mom for a while but I knew I couldn't get my hopes up and that this could of happened. Back to the dr I went a few days later and she had me do another ultrasound. This time, there was more follicles and had me take those 2 medications again but also offered a shot to increase the eggs to mature. i took it. the next 2 weeks were a bit rough, the side effects were a bit hard to deal with. As the days went on, i started to feel the usual cramping and breast soreness so i was sure i wouldn't be pregnant again. i had a back up pee test but i just thought in my heart that i wasn't pregnant. On Nov. 4 i should of gotten my period but nothing. I didn't want to get my hopes up over one day late so i asked Luis if i could take the pregnancy test the next morning but he wanted me to wait a few days to make sure i wasnt just late. the following day it was my mom's birthday and still no period. After work, i had to run to the dollar store for a gift bag and saw that they had a dollar pregnancy test, i stared at it and figured "why not, Luis isnt here and besides, its a dollar" so i bought it. I rushed home, and did the usual pee and wait. After a quick few seconds, one pink line appeared and i thought it would of stayed negative... few more seconds and another faint line appeared! i thought it had to be a mistake and besides it's probably wrong since it was just a dollar. i Googled to see if others had taken the dollar tree pregnancy test and sure enough, many swore by them!! I WAS PREGNANT! this little tiny white stick with 2 very bright lights was telling me i was FINALLY HAVING A BABY!!! I WAS IN SHOCK!!! could it really be true? i was pregnant but it was tough to let it sink in. Being pregnant and after struggling, i did not want to wait to let Luis and our families know! our baby was here and we had to celebrate. Luis was no more then 10 min from getting home and i had no idea on what to do to surprise him! there wasnt enough time! all i could think of doing was setting up the ipad on the table ready to record and put the pregnancy test on the kitchen island for him to see when he walked in. When he got home, i ran to record on the ipad and by the time i turned to look at him, he was starring in shock at the pregnancy test. He asked me if i was and i nodded yes! We hugged a bunch of times and he filled his face with tears! it meant so much to see how he reacted. After that we had to hurry and leave because it was my moms birthday and we needed to have dinner with them. Since we had nothing to surprise them with, i showed my mom a picture of the pregnancy test and for the longest her and my dad just starred at it clueless... but when my mom figured it out, she could not stop crying!! my brother and Melly were extremely happy as well and my dad took a minute to figure out what was going on lol. I dont think we could of given mom a better gift on her birthday then the gift of a new life here with us. The following day Luis didnt want to wait to tell his family so we ran to the store and bought a pacifier, put a note attached saying "after 10 years, youre going to be a grandma again!" and put it inside a small box. We had everyone in the living room and had his mom open it. she took it out and read the note and started crying. Erick went up to us and hugged us to congratulate us. His family was excited as well! how could they not be if everyone knows how hard its been for us and sad and here we were, with a little miracle that was already loved by many!! We love you so much, you already have given us so much life and happiness, my baby.





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